she drops

because if I’m being real • some days start off really, really good & can become really, really frustrating •

toddler • enough said • some days my sweet, beautiful child can wear me so thin that I want to scream & cry then hug him & crawl into bed • little nothings like refusing to eat the dinner you busted your ass to make & let them help • making a damn quesadilla for the 567,589th time so you don’t lose your shit •

deep breaths • drops of valor + frank + release & a note to self… only 5 more weeks and your friend wine will return for the rescue •

kisses goodnight + deep breaths & the reminder that tomorrow is a new day •

35/40: Baby Bump Files

:: 35 weeks::

oh my goodness! we are getting so close to the big day!!  We had an appointment with the perientologist and she is estimating baby girl to be approximately 5lbs,12oz & expected to gain a half pound per week until delivery which means another 8lb baby for us! Yay for healthy babies!

New with me … over all I do feel good but I do experience physical discomfort more than not. The way I am carrying is difficult for  me to find comfort. This little lady is heavy. My appetite has slowed down a bit and I find that I get slightly nauseous when I eat.  I have been eating smaller portions more frequently to manage it. No real cravings in a while just loving ice water, lots and lots of ice water.

Christmas was two days ago and bitter sweet. It was our last Christmas as a family of three (in the flesh) and the first holiday that my Husband and I have not vacationed in nine years!  I am way too pregnant feeling to be traveling right now. We had a nice time at my sisters and then just doing a lot of relaxing at the house.  I finally got around to that laundry … now to find the motivation to fold/hang it.

I still need to pack my hospital bag … what did you pack in yours?

I busted out the big balance ball last night to use for some stretching and to try and find comfort, I used it a lot at the end with our Son. Hoping it will help a bit.

This past week we also celebrated our third wedding anniversary by going to the exact spot we said “I do” – I have been with this wonderful man for nine years now and with each passing year our life just gets better and better.  We are so blessed. So very blessed…15591450_10209898450152177_3386851642179590408_o15625956_10209898450392183_883655059357783973_o15676318_10209898460392433_4821107898317082998_o

34/40: Baby Bump Files

:: 34 weeks ::

I am still in shock that we are at the end of this pregnancy! She will be here within the next six (6) weeks!!!  It has gone by so quickly, yet at this point kinda, sorta feels like we are standing still.

Tegan is so active, as in, she never, ever stops moving. The movements amaze me every time. I am lucky that she doesn’t practice her dance moves at night and sleeps whenI do, hopefully she will do the same when she is born.

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I feel like am carrying VERY low at this point which is causing a lot of pressure and makes it uncomfortable to stand for long periods of time.  Then again on the other hand, she feels high making it difficult to catch my breath standing still – fun fun fun!  Other than that, she is sweet and treating me well.  Long, warm baths have become my favorite place to be and the most comfortable place to be.  I have been adding Cypress, Lavender and Tangerine essential oil to my baths with Epsom salt to help with the edema. The combo is very soothing and relaxing …. toddler interruptions and all.

Her nursery is all set up with the exception of mountains of clothing that still need to be washed, hung and packed in our hospital bag (still need to do that too). Over time I will add a few more decorations as I find them but it feels ready for her to be home in!

Grayson seems just as excited as the day we told him & now speaks to and of her as though she is here with us already … that I just love so much.  He reads to her, talks to her, gives kisses and talks about her.  My heart melts every single time.

We have an appointment later this week with our perientologist who will be able to give us a guess at to her weight. Right now she feels huge ::insert sarcastic laugh:: Grayson was 8.6lbs, very curious to see what little miss will be packing.

My birth plan is pretty much the same which is really no plan at all.  Go to the hospital, have the baby, get cleared and bring our precious little baby home with us and resume life as a family of four.

Thirty Four down, Six(ish) to go!